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Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. 10 April 2006

Posted by Sasha in Philosophy & Paradox, The Brooder.
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I’m racking my brain for things I want to do in life. What is my greatest passion? Honestly, I find myself stumped.

What do I normally do nowadays?

I’ve been blogging — a lot is an understatement. Teehee. I like fiddling with photoshop. And I’m such an OC about images that I use in some of my blogs. I love coming up with designs for clothes and gowns. I still have to get around to learning how to used a goddamn sewing machine! I’m finding that I love to take photographs, ones that have people in it. It’s great that I’ve had tons of opportunities to practice and learn but I still find that it’s not enough. I like writing, creating concepts, stories and analyzing theories. I love listening to music and watching music videos. I love watching films and documentaries. I love reading books because I learn a lot. I love traveling because I get to see and experience what’s out there.

Whenever I try to think of what I really want to do in life, I find myself wishing that I’d get to do something that I really love without worrying about the practicality of everything else. In the end, I always suffer a migraine from all the thinking. Bleh.

“It’s alright to think of what you want to do until you have to do what you’re meant to do.” Which is it anyway? What is it that I have to do and what is it that I’m meant to do? Uh — what is it that I want to do anyway? Pffft. I want to do a lot of things but there’s that nagging voice in my head that tells me that I have to be responsible and I have to grow up.

What does it really mean to be “grown up” anyway? What if all I wanted was the simple life? Does it mean I’m refusing to grow up? Though I tend to doubt that bit since I reckon I can never be content with just living that kind of life. I’m too curious. Too adventurous. But I’m too much of a coward to actually risk everything. Sheesh. I’m scared of the uncertain and I like the idea that I can control things. It’s crazy how I often contradict myself. Heh.

Do I really have to have the kind of job that the society approves of? Should I really be earning a five or six-digit salary? of course, it seems improbable, though it can happen. I’m just frustrated I can’t find the kind of work i really want to do. Not unless, I can really live on what I can earn as a problogger. Hmmm. Well, that’s unconventional. If I do decide to do this full-time, it’s a huge risk — financially, mostly. Hahaha.

We have to admit that we juggle a lot of things in life and somehow get lost in it. We fail to see what it really has to offer and what we can offer back. I’m talking about life. Our minds are occupied with current events, gossips, love and relationships, family, friends, and work. Is it worth it?

I do envy the people who seem to have made sense of their own life. They have found their way in realizing their dream. They’re finding fulfillment in the work that they have and ultimately, are happy. It makes me wonder how they handled that stage in their life when they were still lost and foolish like I am. Or is there a “Living Life for Dummies” book that I can use?

In one conversation I had with someone, he had quoted, in passing, a phrase that Steve Jobs had said in a speech he made in a certain university. And something clicked in my brain. I brooded and pondered and googled it. Here’s what I found in brief:

First
Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever.

Second
As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.

Third
Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

And with that I find that in life, you somehow need to“stay hungry and stay foolish” because I believe that that state of mind will eventually bring you where you’re meant to be and along the way, discover who you’re meant to be.

Uh — that’s what I hope for, at least.

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1. Liz Strauss - 11 April 2006

I’ve found that it’s easier to be true to the person I wish I was that it’s ever been to figure out how to be true to me.. So many parts of me, why should one part get to win just because it’s bigger or nicer or one that I’ve taken a fancy to this week?

But when I think of the person I wish I was, things always seem so clear . . . focus I know what she would do and be

2. theparody - 11 April 2006

There were moments when I thought I was living different lives and I had to choose and get rid of the other. However, it came to be that changing how I view each day helped and yea, focusing on who I am NOW and not on who I was or will be, lessened the stress of all the pressure from the often such high expectations that I put on myself.

Thanks for sharing, Liz. You help me organise my thoughts. 🙂

3. Liz Strauss - 13 April 2006

It’s only now that I’m learning how to live in the moment. I’m finding that I’m liking it. I think you have to have a sense of who you are before you really can.

4. theparody - 13 April 2006

You’re right. If you fail to understand who you are, the “living-in-the-moment” might very well be a lost cause because that life might resemble a broken record. Utterly frustrating and unfulfilling, not to mention highly annoying.


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